Meditation isn’t about becoming a new and different person, or even a better person. It’s about training your awareness and gaining a healthy sense of perspective and cultivating positive thought patterns.
You’re not trying to turn off your brain, thoughts or feelings.
You are simply learning to observe those thoughts and feelings without judgment.
Meditation is just like any other skill you are trying to learn. It takes time and consistent practice.
Meditation is not meant to be "perfect" and don't expect it to be! Sometimes your focus will wander to those dishes in the sink or you’ll forget to breath and then start gasping for air...
That’s OK as it's all part of the wonderful experience. What’s most important is to meditate consistently and keep practicing!